La Primavera 🌸

Don’t get me wrong. I love springtime. And summertime. Fall is cool too. Winter can suck it (for me)! But Every Single Time the weather turns warm I’m surprised that my first thought STILL goes to alcohol. All I have to do, though, is look back to see how any of these things in thisContinue reading “La Primavera 🌸”

Shameful

What’s the difference between guilt and shame? I can’t ever remember but my friend @artunwined explains it in the best way/ guilt is feeling badly bc you did something wrong and shame is feeling like you’re.just.bad. Not bad as in good either. I’ve been found guilty of a few … misunderstandings in my day. I’dContinue reading “Shameful”

Chill

It happens. But it doesn’t mean that everything you’ve learned about your drinking just disappears. One time I less than half ass tried to quit. So instead of doing something I knew I couldn’t or didn’t want to I kept drinking for another 15 years or so. And knew I didn’t want to AS IContinue reading “Chill”

Life After Death

We did survive. Just barely. We didn’t thrive though. At.All. The never ending purgatory of feeling horrid when I woke up, to the inevitable anxiety and to top it off?! The guilt that I was going to do it again. That same day. Yes- there’s life after alcohol. And you’ll actually remember it. Happy Tuesday,Continue reading “Life After Death”

High Time

A little teaser from our book, Don’t Drink Like My Sister:In this book, we talk about barriers to quitting, including shame, the label “alcoholic,” and drinking culture. .We tell our stories about what happened when we were drinking, the ups and downs of getting sober, and what we did about it.This book is the organicContinue reading “High Time”

What Have You Done For Me?

Alcohol DID give us some things, though. Nausea, anxiety, humiliation, and a mouth that didn’t know when to shut. I got bruises, scabs, scars and stitches. Alcohol helped us choose the sketchy friends and alcoholic boyfriends we thought we deserved. We attract the same energies we put out. I’ll stick with the sober energy. AndContinue reading “What Have You Done For Me?”

Not

I think I’ll stuck with the not column today. I can’t imagine going back to the anxiety and dread I used to wake up with after a night of drinking. I didn’t wait until the weekend though. But one Sunday I’ll never forget. I was in SoCal visiting a friend I hadn’t seen in years.Continue reading “Not”

Sweet Dreams 💫

I never had a problem sleeping. I could fall asleep on a dime. At one point I wondered if I had narcolepsy. Or like a 12 year case of mono. Nope. I passed out every night drunk so that sleep wasn’t the most restful. And I was a bit sick allll the time because IContinue reading “Sweet Dreams 💫”