Tag: sober podcast
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Evolve, Sisters
It’s freedom. When we thought about never drinking again it seemed impossible, overwhelming, unimaginable. How could we when we’d planned our entire teen and adult years around drinking? I’d find any excuse not to go anywhere alcohol wasn’t going to be. I got tickets one year for a bluegrass festival and when someone mentioned that […]
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Forgive Yourself
My sister and I tried, failed, tried, and failed again – over and over again to be quit drinking. I actually didn’t try that hard. When I’d wake up after making a spectacle of myself…again…I’d swear that was the last time. By 4 pm I’d tell myself it wasn’t that bad. By 5 I’d be […]
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We’re Not SUPERstitious, We’re Just a Little Bit Stitious
My sis and I don’t mess around when it comes to signs from the Universe. We’re a bit superstitious and maybe that’s how we survived our drunken years. We hold our breath driving past graveyards. No WAY do we not find wood to knock on when needed. We pick up our feet whenever we drive […]
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Reflections
This seems to happen to almost everyone I know who has made a decision to cut alcohol out of their life. They tell us about how some of their best friends or family members tell them that they’re fine and don’t need to quit. They say that we all do stupid shit and just “tighten […]
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Tahiti
If I had a penny for every time I was going to quit but didn’t because of an upcoming event I’d be writing this post from my glass bottom house in Tahiti. Maybe Bali. But I digress. How many countless times have we all done that? Oh well I was going to quit but I […]
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Streamers, Please
I’ll never forget the day I got out of rehab and went to a recovery meeting. I wanted the world to give me balloons, cake, and streamers. Didn’t they realize that I’d been sober for 28 WHOLE DAYS?! Where are all the props? It eventually dawned on me-why should I be celebrated for something that […]
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You Are Not What Happened to You
My anxiety today went from code orange to code red, then zoomed right ahead to flashing sirens. Something happened that triggered unresolved trauma. It’s been horrible, the resurgence of panic and dread, as well as the sort of resigned feeling that I’ll probably never really feel safe again, that there’s always something lurking and waiting […]
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Why I Drank, and What Happened
The links between why I drank and what happened as my drinking progressed matches this chart exactly. I drank to cope: with anxiety (made it worse); a bad relationship (made it worse); work stress (worse); parenting stress (you get it). The more I drank to cope, the worse care I took with myself. I only […]
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Faking it
I kept up appearances quite well, even when I started drinking heavily. There were a couple slips of course (getting cuffed and hauled to county jail was not in line with my reputation, but you can be sure only my loved ones knew about that). When I felt embarrassed about getting sloppy drunk around certain […]
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People Pleasing and Binge Drinking
I. Introduction. I’m Nicole. I’m a professional, middle-aged, single mom living in San Diego. I’ve got incredible people who love me and I love them right back. I have a fulfilling, rewarding, challenging profession where I come home every day honestly feeling I’ve helped some people. I have friends who are so hilarious and solid […]
Sober Sisters Society 