The tears of a clown

It never ceases to amaze me how much I have in common with the women I meet who are sober or sober curious. We can live 3,000 miles away from one another, in a different country, or even speak different languages but we just “get” each other. The similarities don’t stop at the fact that we have struggled with that bastard Alcohol. I personally am somewhat of a contradiction. To those who don’t know me well I may seem extroverted, confident, and self aware. I actually am self conscious, a bit anxious, and prefer to be alone rather than socialize. I’ve come to find that TONS of the sober sisters I know are the exact same. We know how to put on a mask and show up as our best selves. Haven’t we done that for years while we were drunk? I sure as hell did. I have a hundred acquaintances. As for friends? Who really know me? Good question. It’s still hard to open up and trust others. I could be the life of the party, drunk and messy and the next day hide under my blanket for hours. I can isolate sober too. That fear of opening up and showing the world the true me is real but damn if I didn’t show all of me drunk- naked as a jaybird at weddings, passed out face down outside bars with my dress riding up, center of attention for the world to see while inside I was dying. The ego is no joke. I think about the comedians who’ve struggled with addiction. Sometimes the person who keeps everyone happy is the loneliest person in the room. At least I’m not alone. Luckily the universe gives me other sober women that understand me..even if I don’t say a word. Happy Sunday, sober family! Keep it simple today.
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