Merry christmas

Merry Christmas 2020! It feels like seven years since last Christmas to me. So much has happened since last Christmas …good, bad, and somewhere in between. If I was still in active addiction I don’t think I’d have made it to Christmas this year. I finally learned how to deal with life on life’s terms without taking a drink or a drug to do so. When I was in the cups, every Christmas (as a mom) started with a hangover (or wine flu 🙄), anxiety, and panic that I didn’t have everything ready or that I left out my bottles for someone to find. I’d have to hide the empties because I didn’t want my parents to see them. I never enjoyed the magic of Christmas because I was fighting just to keep my eyes open and my nausea at bay. When I was in my 20s, sometimes I missed family Christmas altogether. It just seemed easier that way. If you ever want tips on avoidance, I’m your girl, though I wouldn’t recommend it. Whatever I avoided always came back to me in some way. The universe works like that and anything I chose not to deal with came back- seemingly with a big ass kick in the gut. I deal with it sober now, though. No more numbing. I care way too much about this life to drink or use. I can’t wait for my family to get here. I can’t wait to experience the magic. The best gift I can give them all, though, is a clean and sober daughter, mother, sister, and friend. Merry MERRY CHRISTMAS, sober family. Keep it simple today.♥️




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