Happy Tuesday Sober family!
When I first started really partying I was dating a guy who introduced me to the Grateful Dead. We went to shows, we went on tour, we thought we were living the hippie life. We drank a ton and ingested all of the dry goods we could get our hands on. I was all about the peace, love, and music.
Here’s the sad part. Where it used to be all about the music and the experience it morphed into how wasted we could get. The music was an excuse to get black out drunk. From the age of 15 I knew. My priorities were skewed. I cared about ME and only me. I wasn’t worried about anyone else and how or if they were having a good time. I wanted what I wanted when I wanted it and I’d make your life hell until I got it. Then look for more.
I wasn’t living a peace, love, and happiness hippie existence. I was living to “get mine”.
The other day I put some Grateful Dead on in the car and my 14 year old son said, “Who’s this?”
I told him who it was and why we haven’t listened to them in years. When I first got sober I couldn’t listen to any music that reminded me of getting wasted. I spent days and years listening to public radio. Now I can listen to anything and actually appreciate the music, not the hazy reminders of intoxication. It’s a good place to be.
I hope you all have a wonderful day and don’t forget to keep it simple.