Happy Tuesday Sober Family!
Lies lies lies…I’ve been thinking about the lies I told myself and everyone else who would listen while I was in the cups.
I’d tell myself that nobody knew how much I was drinking. That nobody could tell that my life was falling apart. I’d tell myself that my friends didn’t mind taking care of me night after night. That everyone gets kicked out of bars. That everyone has no idea how their car made it home. That everyone hid bottles. Left the oven on overnight. Stayed in bed for days at a time. Drunk dialed exes. Drunk texted family. I could go on and on and these are just things I remember!
I hated checking my phone each morning. It was throwing gasoline on my anxiety because I KNEW I’d sent some bullshit to someone at some point.
Stevie Nicks (who has been sober from pills for 20 years and coke for 30) sang the song “Little Lies” with Fleetwood Mac. I don’t need anyone telling me “sweet little lies”. I’ve told myself enough to last a lifetime.
Sobriety has not only given me a happy, healthy life. It’s given me back the morals and values I was raised with. Don’t lie. Don’t cheat. Don’t steal. You get the idea. Once that first drink hit my lips all bets were off. I remember (slightly) taking money out of a guitar player’s tip jar at a bar. I was like 40 years old. Not cool. I did give it back but damn….not a classy look.
I hope you all have a wonderful day. Don’t forget to keep it simple, sisters.